wierd how when you havent spoken to someone for aggees and by ages i mean over a year and then when you know you're going to see them you worry about it being really awkward...
well i have a friend who i havent spoken to in over a year i saw them the other day and again to day and it wasnt at all awkard there was still a conection there and it was fab.
remebering the old days and stuff like the legendery BUNK BED BUS! (we were very mature back then)
and colouring in our school shirts in geography and signing them and stuff...(obviously we cared about our education back then)
and just general things we used to do such as earlobe flicking....maturity i know but it was fun!
hhe xxx
Tuesday 20 May 2008
Tuesday 13 May 2008
mysterious,thing time, powerful, and when meddled with dangerous :
a lesson that is definately worth learning.
you know everyone has there ups and downs but i never ever realised until it was put bluntly that one small action can lead to dozens of huge mistakes.
hmm think of it like this:
you have a million dominos all lined up in a huge pattern around a room. one gets knocked over. at the time you think oh one knocked over i can just pick it back up again. but no actually what we forgot to state was they are all close to eachother, and by knocking one down it will fall o to the next one, and that one will fall onto the next. and so on and so forth until all the dominoes have fallen over.
what do you do then?
stand the back up again?
or leave them?
tough question i mean if you stand them back up again you could knock them down again...but if you don't try and you just leave them who knows what could have happened?
anyway back to time. now really isn't the right time for me. everything happeneing at once and no one seems to understand or they think they do but they actually have no idea how i am feeling. or when they try i just push them away. time is dangerous. having the right timing for anything is a must...but how do you know when the right time is until after you have advanced and discovered it's the wrong time?
ok so now isn't the right time for me as a person but everything seems to be happening now and i haven't the strength to stop it...so if nows the wrong time when will be the right time?
and i know i should stop thinking about all this other stuff and get on with my exams and revise and do well...but how can i? it's easy for people to turn round and say just do your revision and get your exams out of the way but seriously i can't think of anyone who understands how i am feeling right now and how much i have gone through in the last 2 weeks.
another thing i may have changed and people mnay noot be liking it but it wasn't deliberate and i wasn't aware of it. i do honestly appreciate people telling me that i am messing up big time and whatever but now really isn't the best time. i do just want to revise and get my exams over with and have a fab summer. i do want to be happy. i don't want to loose all of my friends. but right now everything is being thrown at me all at once. i may be a strong person, but i am not that strong, i sound pathetic i know but this is just how i am feeling and this is my blog where i can write how i am feeling. and right now i am feeling weak thats it.
i know now how many of my friends i am about to loose and believe me i don't want to but right now i don't have the strenght to fight back. with everything going on right now i can't prioratise anything. and obviously family comes first right? but by putting all that first it makes me change and ri my self of my emotions in a way that i know all of my friends disaproove of. but then if i put my friends first i am forgetting my family and right now my family is the key thing to me i need to be there for them they need to be there for me. but i don't want to loose my friends. which takes me back to the dominoes. right now do i have the emotional strength to pick up all the dominoes and start again...or do i leave them where they are? i don't want to leave them they are my friends but now isn't the right time for me to be dealing with everything. i don't think it's possible for anything worse to happen right now...aolthough i do know something that oculd...and i just hope it doesn't as that will be it.
ok emotional moment ovr but anyone with any coments advice or whatever please let me know :S
xxx
you know everyone has there ups and downs but i never ever realised until it was put bluntly that one small action can lead to dozens of huge mistakes.
hmm think of it like this:
you have a million dominos all lined up in a huge pattern around a room. one gets knocked over. at the time you think oh one knocked over i can just pick it back up again. but no actually what we forgot to state was they are all close to eachother, and by knocking one down it will fall o to the next one, and that one will fall onto the next. and so on and so forth until all the dominoes have fallen over.
what do you do then?
stand the back up again?
or leave them?
tough question i mean if you stand them back up again you could knock them down again...but if you don't try and you just leave them who knows what could have happened?
anyway back to time. now really isn't the right time for me. everything happeneing at once and no one seems to understand or they think they do but they actually have no idea how i am feeling. or when they try i just push them away. time is dangerous. having the right timing for anything is a must...but how do you know when the right time is until after you have advanced and discovered it's the wrong time?
ok so now isn't the right time for me as a person but everything seems to be happening now and i haven't the strength to stop it...so if nows the wrong time when will be the right time?
and i know i should stop thinking about all this other stuff and get on with my exams and revise and do well...but how can i? it's easy for people to turn round and say just do your revision and get your exams out of the way but seriously i can't think of anyone who understands how i am feeling right now and how much i have gone through in the last 2 weeks.
another thing i may have changed and people mnay noot be liking it but it wasn't deliberate and i wasn't aware of it. i do honestly appreciate people telling me that i am messing up big time and whatever but now really isn't the best time. i do just want to revise and get my exams over with and have a fab summer. i do want to be happy. i don't want to loose all of my friends. but right now everything is being thrown at me all at once. i may be a strong person, but i am not that strong, i sound pathetic i know but this is just how i am feeling and this is my blog where i can write how i am feeling. and right now i am feeling weak thats it.
i know now how many of my friends i am about to loose and believe me i don't want to but right now i don't have the strenght to fight back. with everything going on right now i can't prioratise anything. and obviously family comes first right? but by putting all that first it makes me change and ri my self of my emotions in a way that i know all of my friends disaproove of. but then if i put my friends first i am forgetting my family and right now my family is the key thing to me i need to be there for them they need to be there for me. but i don't want to loose my friends. which takes me back to the dominoes. right now do i have the emotional strength to pick up all the dominoes and start again...or do i leave them where they are? i don't want to leave them they are my friends but now isn't the right time for me to be dealing with everything. i don't think it's possible for anything worse to happen right now...aolthough i do know something that oculd...and i just hope it doesn't as that will be it.
ok emotional moment ovr but anyone with any coments advice or whatever please let me know :S
xxx
Thursday 1 May 2008
in alot of pain!
i have decided i am obviously the smartest human on this planet for a few reasons!
1) i have the ability to gain concussion from walking into a light.
2) i ask "what meat is in these vegeterien sausages?"
3) i got hit by a parked car (he smashed the door into my boob)
4) i wear shorts when it is cold and jeans when it is hot...(thi9s is soo smart)
....
and lastly...
5) i just this second picked up a chair and droped it on my foot.
i think i am easily the smartest person on this god forsaken planet!
for the reference yes it did hurt!
and yes this is sarcastic and i know i am retarded oh and yes all of this is 100% true!
hehe xxx
1) i have the ability to gain concussion from walking into a light.
2) i ask "what meat is in these vegeterien sausages?"
3) i got hit by a parked car (he smashed the door into my boob)
4) i wear shorts when it is cold and jeans when it is hot...(thi9s is soo smart)
....
and lastly...
5) i just this second picked up a chair and droped it on my foot.
i think i am easily the smartest person on this god forsaken planet!
for the reference yes it did hurt!
and yes this is sarcastic and i know i am retarded oh and yes all of this is 100% true!
hehe xxx
N.B. people are confusing!
i invented a fab quote today and mr tappa (our saviour) loved it : "women interpret men just how they would interpret other women" lucy foster.
ok ok the science behind it all. it really was something i came up with based around the hectic lives of my friends angel and alex. hmmm well i realised actually it also has some relevance to myself. but enough about that.
moving on now: ever noticed that one person can say push and another will say pull? yer thats how i am feeling right now. bit of a long story tbh but one that will be devouredduring my meeting period 1 tomorrow. i am just finding descision making difficult.
how can i explain this?
hmm ok got it. you are going out for the day and (this will only be with relevance to girls) you have 2 fab pairs of hoes, both of which would look fab with your outfit. so being confused as to which pair to wear you consult your friends. one says one pair the other says the other pair.
ok right i get it either way it doesn't matter which pair of shoes you wear but what ones should you wear. but the part your missing is that no matter which pair you wear the ones your wear wont be new again and will never be the same...will they!
so if you havent guessed the shoes represent my desicions and how confused i am and how confusing some of my clostest friends can be!
but yer thats all folks!
xxx
ok ok the science behind it all. it really was something i came up with based around the hectic lives of my friends angel and alex. hmmm well i realised actually it also has some relevance to myself. but enough about that.
moving on now: ever noticed that one person can say push and another will say pull? yer thats how i am feeling right now. bit of a long story tbh but one that will be devouredduring my meeting period 1 tomorrow. i am just finding descision making difficult.
how can i explain this?
hmm ok got it. you are going out for the day and (this will only be with relevance to girls) you have 2 fab pairs of hoes, both of which would look fab with your outfit. so being confused as to which pair to wear you consult your friends. one says one pair the other says the other pair.
ok right i get it either way it doesn't matter which pair of shoes you wear but what ones should you wear. but the part your missing is that no matter which pair you wear the ones your wear wont be new again and will never be the same...will they!
so if you havent guessed the shoes represent my desicions and how confused i am and how confusing some of my clostest friends can be!
but yer thats all folks!
xxx
Monday 28 April 2008
it has just ocurd to me that i haven't made any comment about the tights!
ok well here we go!
on our day off school (teacher stike) me and my dear firned alex decided we would go on a trip. ok no thats a lie i forced her to come on the trip with me. and being the slags we are we wanted no another lie...i have a boyfirend so...she wanted to impress guys.
in reference to our sluttiness? we do wear skirts to school therefoore we have to have tights as in the winter girls do not have a tan and will not show off their legs. this is where the problem occured. neither of us had any tights that weren't pale, holey or laddered! WTF??
so me being the lovely friend i am offers to buy some tights on the way over to alex's house. hmmm big mistake...tip: never let me buy tights alone!
so there i am making my purchase in the lovely shop we call sainsbury's and off i am to alex's with the tights!
ok so i get there and we get the tights out to get changed into out cskirts/shorts and what have i done. ohhhh shit! we wanted clack tights right...no i din't by skin tooned ones...these tights were black...well "nearly black". this was when i discovered i should read the colour of the tights befor ei buy them.
they werent black or even nearly black like the packet said they were they were infact GRANNY FREEKING GREY!!!!!
it was horrific but funny. so we took them back and brought black ones...well alex got them and i paid haha!
btw the trip was shit!
xxxx
on our day off school (teacher stike) me and my dear firned alex decided we would go on a trip. ok no thats a lie i forced her to come on the trip with me. and being the slags we are we wanted no another lie...i have a boyfirend so...she wanted to impress guys.
in reference to our sluttiness? we do wear skirts to school therefoore we have to have tights as in the winter girls do not have a tan and will not show off their legs. this is where the problem occured. neither of us had any tights that weren't pale, holey or laddered! WTF??
so me being the lovely friend i am offers to buy some tights on the way over to alex's house. hmmm big mistake...tip: never let me buy tights alone!
so there i am making my purchase in the lovely shop we call sainsbury's and off i am to alex's with the tights!
ok so i get there and we get the tights out to get changed into out cskirts/shorts and what have i done. ohhhh shit! we wanted clack tights right...no i din't by skin tooned ones...these tights were black...well "nearly black". this was when i discovered i should read the colour of the tights befor ei buy them.
they werent black or even nearly black like the packet said they were they were infact GRANNY FREEKING GREY!!!!!
it was horrific but funny. so we took them back and brought black ones...well alex got them and i paid haha!
btw the trip was shit!
xxxx
Tuesday 1 April 2008
oh i do lov to be by the sea side!
or something like that i just want to go on holiday i know i am like next week but it wont be hot bikini and shorts weather...even though that is what i will wear. i want to go somewhere on an airplane and relax and get a tan!
i NEED a tan for the prom.
i also reaaly want to sun bathe like i can't wait till then sun comes out. ok yer you can get cancer and die but i mean you need some sun. without it your skin goes pail and you look ill. sunlight is full of vitamin c! we need vitamin c for good skin...it will clear away spots so yer. i need to sunbathe!
HANDY HINT: do NOT under any circumstances wear sun glasses whilst you are sunbathing! you will end up looking like an alien freak if you need to you can shut your eyes...this is better!
haha lol xxx
i NEED a tan for the prom.
i also reaaly want to sun bathe like i can't wait till then sun comes out. ok yer you can get cancer and die but i mean you need some sun. without it your skin goes pail and you look ill. sunlight is full of vitamin c! we need vitamin c for good skin...it will clear away spots so yer. i need to sunbathe!
HANDY HINT: do NOT under any circumstances wear sun glasses whilst you are sunbathing! you will end up looking like an alien freak if you need to you can shut your eyes...this is better!
haha lol xxx
deoxiribo nucleic acid
or DNA as we know it!
on that subject i knew onions had dna of course but it got me thinking when we cut ourselves you know like fall over and cut our knee we tear the skin cells and therefore our dna strands which is really painful...so when we cut through and onion and take out its DNA...does it hurt them??
someone help me i am so confused...
i mean i owuldn't want to be causing pain to a vegetable.
however if it feels pain throught that imagine how it must feel when we eat it...
so actually even vegetarians are killing things and eating them because the cells are ALIVE so if you really wanted to be a vegetarian and not eat anything that had been killed you would actually have to eat NOTHING!
this is stupid but yer do onions feel pain?
xxx
on that subject i knew onions had dna of course but it got me thinking when we cut ourselves you know like fall over and cut our knee we tear the skin cells and therefore our dna strands which is really painful...so when we cut through and onion and take out its DNA...does it hurt them??
someone help me i am so confused...
i mean i owuldn't want to be causing pain to a vegetable.
however if it feels pain throught that imagine how it must feel when we eat it...
so actually even vegetarians are killing things and eating them because the cells are ALIVE so if you really wanted to be a vegetarian and not eat anything that had been killed you would actually have to eat NOTHING!
this is stupid but yer do onions feel pain?
xxx
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